I'm in an odd mood right now. I'm not quite sure what it is. I'm a little down, a little bored, a little tired. But I'm not really feeling a lot of any of those things. Not quite sure what's going on in my head.
We recorded episode 13 of our podcast today. I think it went well, but I'm hyper critical of myself. I don't think I make a very good co-host, at least compared to my other co-hosts. I'm not a good conversation starter, and I don't really maintain the chat either. I stutter quite a bit (though Nessa tries to edit out as much of that as she can.. She continually amazes me with her editing prowess.) When listening back to the show, I'm not as horrified as I expect to be, but I think of 1,001 things I should have said. Now I'm not saying this because I'm looking for reassurance or anything, I'm saying this because this is how I'm feeling right now. I want to get it out of me. That's all. Keep in mind that I love doing the show and I'm going to continue to do the show. I'm just socially awkward. I've joked about it on the show, but it's true. I own that. Doing the show is a great tool to help me overcome some of it. I hope the show helps me with my self-confidence. I know I have many issues there and I'm working on them.
2008 is the year I work on myself. I've spent all this time losing weight and I want to start turning the focus on the rest of me. The podcast is helping with some inner issues. I'm going to the podiatrist to take care of my foot issues. I'm working on getting my cholesterol back in check. It's all about me!