I really am. With the whole diet/weight loss thing. I can't ever let myself be happy for myself. I don't know why I'm like this, and quite frankly, it's getting old. I need to change my whole attitude. I was talking to Ken about this last night. I told him that when I started my diet, I would be so incredibly happy if I could get down to 250 pounds. When I hit 250, sure I was proud (for about ten minutes) and then I went back to being not satisfied. At the very least I'm aware of my idiocy, now it's just getting past it.
Today should help. All week long I was yoyoing between 208 and 212, which makes sense because I was 210 last week. This morning I was 207. I'm now below my previous low of 209. I got a chance to get out there and do some outside walking this week. The weather was beautiful for the first half of the week, with temps getting up from the high 40s to the low 60s. I took full advantage of the mild weather. This morning I did laps at the mall with the blue hairs. I usually do five laps (which is 3 miles), but I had a little extra energy and did a 6th. I feel really good about myself today. I'm going to try and take that good feeling with me everywhere I go this week. It's a whole new me!