6.21.2011

You've Come A Long Way Baby


I've been feeling pretty damn good about my body lately.  It's a rarity, for sure.  I have a distorted view of what I think my body really looks like.  I look in the mirror, but I don't see what other people see.  I still see myself as being much bigger than I really am.  Not as big as I used to be, but definitely not as slim as I really am.  In fact, it's rare that I would use the word slim to describe myself.  Anyway, a week or so ago I was feeling extra positive about how I looked, so I snapped a picture to remind me of this.  And then I thought nothing about it until tonight when I was loading pictures from my phone to the computer.  I'm glad I took this because I was going to write a little blog post about the next picture.


Over the weekend, my friend Lori posted this picture of me and Lynn on her Facebook page.  I got a notification that I was tagged in a picture, so I went and found it.  And my jaw nearly hit the ground.  I immediately posted a comment on the picture saying something along the lines that I couldn't believe how horrible a picture it was.  I didn't say that because I was mad that she posted in.  In fact, I was so excited she did.  But she took it the wrong way and removed the picture.  It bummed me out because I went to go make it my profile picture, but it was gone.  I had her send it to me so I could repost it and make it my profile picture.  

This is the single most disgusting picture I've ever seen of myself.  I cannot believe that I ever let myself get to that point.  I knew I was fat, but much like I have difficulty seeing myself as slender now, I had a really hard time as seeing myself as grossly obese.  Looking at the picture right now makes me feel like someone just hit me in the back of the head with a solid wood baseball bat.  And it also fills me with so much self-esteem, something I lack most days.  I am so fucking proud of all that I've accomplished with my body in the nearly five years since I committed to getting healthy.  Two years to lose the weight and now nearly three years at my goal.  I'm Superman!

4 comments:

Joe in Philly said...

Way to go, Walt!

wcs said...

Truly inspiring!

Nik_TheGreek said...

You're Superman indeed!
Well done! You must be so proud of yourself.

erik98122 said...

Rock on Skinny Bitch!!