I don't know what's going on with me right now. I haven't been in the mood lately to do much or to say much. All I really want to do is run away. I know I posted a few days ago that all I wanted to do was hide. It's escalated slightly since then. Everything seems to bother me right now. People bother me. Places bother me. Things out of my control bother me. Things I have a firm grasp on bother me. I really don't know the cause, either. Usually when I get like this, it's because my sleep patterns have been wonky. That's not the case right now. I've been fine in the sleep department. I know this funk will pass, because it always does. It's just that it's getting tired now. It may be this cold I've been fighting that's the root of it. I thought I was pretty much over it and then today hit. My nose started running again, my throat has a tickle again and I just felt drained. This is one of the things that makes me hate the fall. I can guarantee that I will catch a cold as fall begins to settle. I blame the weather on it. You see, I'm someone who doesn't mind the cold so much. I don't mind the heat either. But what I do mind is the process of going from the warm weather to the cold weather. I abhor it. Especially when the weather goes on a roller coaster ride... warm today, cold tomorrow, warm the day after, really cold after that. Can't stand it. One of the things that I used to love about this time of year is the fact that the days get shorter. That it gets darker out so much earlier. But ever since I left retail, I've found I'm no longer a fan of this, either. I think I liked it so much when I worked at the store because I had to work nights, so the sooner the night got here, the sooner I could get the hell out of there.

Another reason to be crabby.... my knee has started acting up. I don't know what I did to it either. It's not been so bad that I can't go out walking or anything, but I'm afraid that if I don't give it a rest, it's going to get that bad. And it's the knee opposite the side that I'm having the sciatic problems. The least my body could have done was consolidate all my aches and pains into one convenient area, right?

Sorry that this is such a whiny, crabby blogpost. I've wanted to write something here for the last few days, but I've been in such an "I can't be bothered" mood that nothing happened.

Time to go sit in front of the tv for the rest of the night. Wednesdays have become my overrun night of tv. Pushing Daisies, Project Runway, Top Design and the Real World/Road Rules Challenge are all on tonight. I'll watch half before bed and the rest this weekend.

P.S. to Erik - Your comment the other day on one of my posts just made me adore you even more than I thought possible. Hope you're feeling better.

1 comment:

Melanie said...

I'm sorry you're having such a bummer of a time, hon. Seasonal switchover can mess with your hormones as well as your health -- just pull back and take care of yourself until things are better.